Last night while hanging with other psychic and empathic friends, the negatives I have "rid" myself of "attacked" all of us here.  Thank goodness for a very psychic and great friend, because when it happened, I spoke out about the mental and physical "thing" I was experienced, which became extremely bad for me.  The woman next to me at the same moment said, almost in unison, that she too was experiencing "something" awful, and our other friend immediately knew we were being attacked.  We all knew by who, as the "little group of people" who were doing it had attacked her here just a bit earlier and she had to deal with them.  So, it took all three of us to jump in and use several techniques that we had recently learned in order to shield and put a stop to what they were doing to us.  Thanks to her strong guides, they also jumped in, because in order to protect her, they had to protect us.  Yay, that we were all together when it happened, and yay that we were strong enough together with all of our gifts to deal with that situation.  Alone, I would not have known what was going on with me, and possibly would have had an impossible time dealing with it.  Not only did we overcome, but we were able to clear the negative energy that they had left behind, which allowed them to re-enter and attack.  Now that their bad energy is gone, I am taking precautions to avoid that from being able to happen again.  If it does, I will be better prepared and know how to handle that type of situation on my own.

I have really learned to appreciate my boyfriend.  We have been through so much together, and one of those things was him not being accepting of my gifts for the 1st part of our relationship.  We had to separate for a bit, to both realize how important we were to each other, and what was important as far as we were concerned.  Things are much different now, this time around.  The first thing that brought us back together was when I felt his heart open up, finally, instead of being closed off.  He is so very different.  He also accepts me and my gifts and tries so hard to support me, learn about what I am going through, and that is very important to someone like us with these things.  Every day is different.  We never know when something is going to "kick" in.  There is no switch to turn anything on or off.  It is always there, but some days are worse than others (or better). 

Some days I am so extremely empathic, some times I am experience psychic abilities (many different ones, not just one), and to learn to deal with this and control how I deal with it has become a daily struggle for me.  I love knowing why I am so different know, and why I always have been, but I still am learning about myself and my gifts, as are others around me, and having a support system of others like me is so very important.  I have found that going into a public situation for me is virtually impossible most of the time.  Having others like me to go to things together is awesome.  There is safety and validation at the same time.  Not to say that I don't still have issues dealing with things on my way or once I am there, but it is so much easier to deal with when others like me are there to share in similar experiences.  It is also so very cool to hear someone else's experiences and outlook on a situation.  I have had many negative experiences, especially if I go somewhere where there is a lot of people, because there is always going to be negatives there.  I have learned not to intentionally put myself in those situations, and to not attend anything that might put me over the edge.  Surrounding myself with other positives helps so much, as the energy around me is more positive, helping me not focus as much on the negative energy that I feel.  I have also learned to listen to my intuition, guides, whatever it is.  I tend to manifest negative energy into physical conditions.  If the negativity is really close in proximity, or huge in numbers, I will have an anxiety attack and get sick on my stomach, sometimes to the point of debilitation.  I have felt this prior to an event, causing me to avoid that event, by listening to my intuition/guides and physical symptoms.  Sometimes I just feel the negativity and know what is coming.  Sometimes I have to have an episode before I understand it.  Learning how I react both before and during this type situation, helps me see how to better deal with it in the future and also strive to find new techniques to deal with these type energies.

The atmospheric energy for the last few months has been so overwhelming.  Some days are fine, others are way too much.  I have found, by accident, that reversing my days and nights, by sleeping during the day and staying up at night has helped me tremendously.  On the occasion I have had to go back to a normal person's schedule of daytime activity and trying to sleep at night, that I don't do nearly as well at all.  I found that the energy during the day, especially during the work-week when the energy is highest, that I have to sleep through.  At night the energy levels are lower, while people sleep, traffic is nil, then I am at peace, calmer, my anxiety is lower and I can actually accomplish things with a clearer head.  I tested this by reversing my days/nights several different times over the last few weeks.  Every time I am up during the day, I still have a hard time sleeping at night, but the days are way too overwhelming for me.  Even stepping outside on my patio is too much.  I have to come right back inside and I have to take more anxiety medicine to function.  When I sleep through the energy, I awake feeling so much better.  This does pose a problem though as I can't live my life this way, unless I go to working a night job (being around people is still an issue).  I always wondered why I was like this, a night person.  Now I know.  This is a trait that is common amongst people like us with gifts or who are sensitives. 

So, now that I have that little tidbit figured out, I have to figure out how to function in this world.  So now that is another thing for me to deal with. lol  But, I am happy to figure this out about myself, as it's been rough not knowing what was wrong with me in that area. 

I have also found that if I have to go to the store, for instance, if I go with someone that is positive and distracts me, I don't tend to have as many problems in places like that.  I am able to shield better, rather than if I go in the daytime by myself.  That is a disaster in itself.  Going at night and with someone else, sure helps out so very much. 

So, yes, I have come so far with my gifts.  But, no I still have to figure so much out.  Everyday is a new learning experience and sometimes it takes me days/weeks/months of trial and error to be able to look back and see what is going on with me and what I have to do to change or correct the problem.  Do I always know the answer?  No way, but I do like being able to understand, even if I still have to work towards the goal of finding the answer.
I did not know I was an "Empath" until I met another who affected me so strongly, and at the "end" we realized what had been happening all along.  See, positive empaths, well, they tend to bring out the best in us... but a negative empath, well, that can be disastrous.  I could not figure out why I felt down, depressed, upset, unsettled all of the time.  Then once I knew it was over, we were discussing how I had said he was unhappy here and he was arguing that he was not (our common argument).  Until I said, I can feel you, I feed off of others feelings, did he/we understand what had been going on the entire time.  Also explains why we ended up together so dang quick.... we even had the same birthday.  BUT, once he moved here, away from his kids, mom, family, friends, he lost a part of himself, and was staying for the wrong reasons.  That is what I felt the entire time and didn't know it.  I could start crying for no reason, and someone knew nothing was wrong with me... It took me a long time to learn the difference between my true feelings and me feeling someone else's feelings, and how to gain control of that, once I identify it.  In short, we were mirroring each other, except he was a negative, and it took me over completely.  Truth's come to me in the shower, something about the water... and I was in the shower, tears streaming down my face, for what reason, I didn't know, just knew he had to go.  This was actually at a time that I needed him most, but I knew he had to go then.  He walked through the door to tell me he had a call for a job, and I told him no, sit down, pack your backs and you are leaving tonight.  Stunned was the least of it, but we both knew. 

It was after that, that I learned to start paying attention more.  More to my feelings, those around me, and started realizing "wow" how f*&^%$ up this made me... and how I had no idea how to deal with it.  I would be at work and all of the sudden feel sadness so badly that I could not work majority of the day.  This happy-go-lucky girl all of a sudden took on another persona... and others must have noticed, because I would get questioned as to if I was OK or not... and I would say no, but I don't know what is wrong with me.  Later I found out the girl across from me was internally hiding how upset she was over her husbands abusiveness and she was having to get out for the safety of herself and the kids.... another day I came home to find my guy sitting on the couch, totally distraught, because he was worried all day that I was going to break up with him.  I had felt him from work all day!  Another time, a year or two earlier, my son, who is military, was stationed 10 hours away and had just gotten back from one of his tours over in Iraq, and tried to surprise me... problem is, all week I had the feeling he was coming to town, and a couple of seconds before he arrived, I was standing at my linen closet folding towels and I said "he's here".... then came a crazy pounding knock on the door right after... "surprise!!!!!".  How do you surprise someone like me? lol