I am SO exited at literally EVERYTHING!
I sure can tell a difference in "life" when my energy changes. Last month my most awesome boyfriend treated us to our first real vacation in beautiful, sunny Florida for 9 days. I have found that my "mind" interferes with everything. It promotes the "negative energy" thoughts, thoughts of failure, money issues, stressors, breaking down every little thing. I have learned that I HAVE to get out of my mind and when I stay in my heart, life is so perfect! Decisions are easier, as I follow my heart and my sixth sense/intuition. I realize that I cannot exist both in my mind (intellect/ego) and my heart at the same time. My mind wants to control. My heart knows no control, and I just "am". I am accepting of myself and others. My mind brings judgement and expectation of disappointment. My heart knows that everything is perfect as it is. That everything happens as it should, as it is meant to be. And we cannot control that!
The only bad thing about vacation was coming home! lol It was so nice to forget everything and just "be". Once home I had a huge energy shift and apparently was so "open" after some serious "soul" work and being with nature/free, that re-adjusting was a huge thing for me. On top of that it was an eclipse & new moon. Whew! The wonderful thing is that I have learned how to "disconnect" myself from everything (people, computers, phones) and my down time is no longer "hiding" but is now a way for me to shift my vibration back up, focus on cutting cords, releasing anything I have picked up and clear my energy field. What a huge difference from the girl who ran from everything and needed alcohol to escape from everything, not realizing that was opening me up more and making it all worse/compounded. Good thing is that it was part of my journey, didn't kill me (came close a few times), and I was able to transcend that to a higher realm.
I have been reading (yes, the girl who does not read has been a book junkie). Reading everything I can get my hands on. I am hungry for knowledge for the first time ever. I absorb everything there is on the spiritual level. I am like a sponge. I have clarity for the first time as to my soul purpose. No more confusion, floundering about. I am focused and thank my guides for helping me grow and achieve everything in order to do my work and to help others. I am truly blessed.
My energy over the last few weeks has been SO upside down. One minute I am normal, next minute I am "whacko", then round and round I go, up then down.... Keep this up and maybe I will get used to it! One upside, right? Actually, that is kind of true. The more I have to experience this, the more I learn, the more I hope to get a handle on it. Some days I think I have it kicked. Then within an hour I am going whacko. So, I have learned not to take the good for granted anymore that all is good, and be prepared, be stronger and pay attention, so that I can establish a cycle for myself, triggers and overcome them better with each experience.
I have done much better with negative energy and even groups of many energies. Normally, both would cause me major issues, but I am doing baby steps and making some progress it seems. Either that or I am just severely mis-guided. lol No really, a large group of mixed energies would wear me out for days. Negatives would drain me for days. Outside energy, same. But just in the last few weeks, even with me being in "energy" turmoil, I can see a difference. Yes, some days I have an awful time with it. But on a whole, I am dealing somewhat better. What used to take 5-6 days to recoup, is down to a day or two, depending. Last week I was busy with multiple energy issues (i.e. groups, meetings, appointments, outside/daytime energy, etc) and I bounced back so much better than I have in the past! Yay, progress (positive thoughts for sure)! And no matter what was thrown at me, I overcame it with much more ease and less stress. I have to say that I really think taking the Reiki classes have really made a huge difference, even subconsciously, how I deal with things. I also have come to the point of realizing that my "stuff" is coming up, and it is time to deal with it all... my past, my issues, who knows what all is there. But, I feel so positive about the progress I have made and know I can overcome and deal with it.
My entire outlook has changed. I don't feel the triggers emotionally that I did, even as recent as a couple weeks ago. I have learned to trust my intuition, the signs of pre-cognition, and to let go of the negative things in my past that I am conscious of. The blame for others and the self blame have to be forgiven and let go before we can grow and move on.