Well I am learning alot, growing so much and overcoming things that I want to overcome in my everyday life. I have truly found that being positive and focusing in that direction brings positivity to our lives. Focusing on negatives, then that is what we get too. So, I would much rather live positive, than negative. And our outlook truly manifests in how we project!
I am still on a reversed schedule (night/day). I prefer that actually. But on the days that I have to be a "day" person, I am, I would just rather live in my night time world. I used to get punished as a child for being a night person. Mentally and physically. As an adult on this journey I have learned that it's just what I am and what works best for me. :)
I have been focusing on the positive, paying attention to people that come and go in my life and ridding myself of the drama and bullcrap. Life is not meant to be unhappy! Worrying just creates us additional problems, and is needless negative energy. Those that I deal with or come across who prefer to be negative, even the ones "great" at hiding their negative crap behind the intentions of doing good, don't need to be in my life. I am finally able to identify the narcissists, negatives, etc. and am so much stronger in how I deal with that.
My gifts are evolving again. I have gotten much stronger in many areas. I go to sleep every night with a meditation CD on continual repeat and sleep with headphones on. The cool things are what I experience because of this both during my sleep and during the day. My favorite is a "Chakras Healing Meditation CD" that I purchased a few months ago. It rocks! When I sleep with it going, I dream great things (I actually remember my dreams now!), astral travel, you name it. When I take them off, my dreams go the other direction and they are not as positive and I tend to have more nightmares. I have woken myself up talking and having full conversations in my sleep! I have noticed HUGE change in the last month since I started doing that.
I have found that for the first time, my relationship with my guy is the best ever. This is the first relationship that I have had that actually gets better with time rather than worse. That his huge in itself! I love him tremendously and he is so wonderful to me. I have come so far!
My focus now is still my group and a job that I am happy at and can pay my bills. Oh and first and foremost, me! To continue to focus on the positive and grow, grow, grow! I completely my Level 1 Reiki class, and got my certificate to practice Reiki. I plan on doing level 2 in the next few weeks and the master class within the next month or 2. Yay!
Life is not perfect, but it is what we make it!