Wow, what a rough week, energy-wise.  I have worked so hard to control the energy affecting me, with great success up until this last week.  And boy, what a doozy! 

Up until last week, I had been able to "reverse" my days and nights, so that I could be awake when the energy levels were lower and sleeping during the day when the energy levels were at the highest.  But, in a huge effort to TRY and find a job, I had interviews scheduled both in the early morning and afternoon, driving in traffic for 30-45 minutes one way, every day, and also working on fixing computers with massive viruses, and few other appointments, kept me going every day, all day, and sometimes into the evening.  Then on Friday, as I am driving home, wondering why I am "freaking" out so badly, I look up and low and behold, a friggin full moon.  So, not only did I have daytime energy to deal with, but a full moon to boot.  See I have like a five day time around a full moon that my energy goes whacky.  Usually I find it is a couple days before, the day of, and a couple days after.  I never know when a full moon is in advance, but never fails, every dang month.

Luckily it was an experience I needed to go through in order to figure out how to change.  I need to learn a better way to deal with day-time energies.  I really want to find a job, evening hours would be awesome, but I've done day shift for years, so I can do that again if I need.  I just want to find something I like and can be happy doing with a good company & working atmosphere. 

I am finding that people are not what they seem.  Even for an empath, some are really really good at what they do.  I have met many with gifts that abuse those gifts to do harm to others either intentionally or unintentionally.  Narcissists, emotional vampires, they pray on those of us that are truly out there to help others.  I am using more caution these days with people.  I am not letting many close, as I have found it just drains me too much and causes more problems than good.  Sad to say.  I tend to just do better on my own, majority of the time.  There are a couple that have been good along the way.  And my boyfriend is the best.  This is the first relationship in my life that gets better as we are together.  All of my relationships prior continually diminished over time, whereas this one is healthy and I am happier with him.  I used to hate to spend time with someone, as they drive me crazy.  He can too, cuz that is just me, but he is a good man and it is not the same.  People being around too much just tend to drive me crazy.  I need my space, my down-time.  Just the way I am.  He and I always have fun together though and his positive energy distracts me from the negative energy around me when we are out and about.  Granted, every once in awhile it's still a problem, but usually in large crowds/groups.  I still try not to get out in day-time energy too early, and avoid heavy traffic times, busy stores, etc.  But it is nice to know that he can still make me feel good in a place I would not be if I were with someone else or alone.  That is a special trait and a very special man. :)
 


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